As I look back on the past 365 days, my mind is filled with so many memories that carry with them a mélange of emotions: absolute happiness coupled with desolate sadness, excitement mixed with resentment, longing muddled with anguish, ecstasy and agony, calm peacefulness and blazing hot anger, childlike hopefulness blended with bitter disappointment … definitely a gamut of feelings that extended from one end of the emotional spectrum to the other.
There is much for me to be thankful for these past 12 months … the love and support of my friends and family, the health and well-being of my sons, opportunities to grow and expand my horizons, conquer old fears, never-before and never-will-again moments of love, passion and bliss, even what I thought would be endless heartache … I am thankful for all of it.
Because by going through it all, and becoming introspective of these experiences and cognizant of my feelings as I lived these moments, clarity of thought returned my focus to self-love and my quest for faith.
So I shall be making no lists for the upcoming 365 days. I will only have one intention and that is to expand my love of self, for all other goals will fall into place once I have truly loved Sophia for the amazing woman she is. And it will not be a selfish love, but a selfless one because in loving her completely, unconditionally, without hesitation and without reservation, I will create the space to receive love from and give love to whomever desires to share in my wonderful life.
Welcome, 2014 ... my door is open, as are my arms, heart, soul and mind ...
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